After college I moved home, and started my struggle with losing weight again. I was stressed about pretty much everything, from an on again off again boyfriend, to not finding a career right out of college, the weight just started to fall off of me. It probably helped that I worked three part time jobs continuously and didn't have one second to think about eating normally. After a year and a half of searching, I found my current job, moved to my current location, and just shortly after that I joined a gym here in town. I liked going to the classes, but I would have weeks were I just didn't go, or made up some excuse to why I couldn't.
Fast forward a couple of years to March of this year, my first yoga class with Allie. I was enthralled from the beginning, wanting to perfect each and every pose in the sun-salutation series, pushing myself in each pose to make the most of that single moment, wanting the most from my exercise. It is my time to reflect on the day without being worried about the day, I can push it all out of my head if I want, or I can think on it quietly, having the time to make my own decisions and viewpoints without the constant chatter going on behind me. I now want to be healthy and fit, although there is still that voice in the back of my head that wants me to be skinny. I have come to understand my body more, understand that I am strong, understand that I can do much more than I ever imagined. My eating habits have improved drastically. I try to stay away from fast food, although at the moment I am seriously craving some Zaxby's , eat lots of veggies, fruits, and whole grains. I love cooking, especially if there are others to cook for, but understand that I need to cook when it is just me too. I feel better, I definitely look better, and I plan on living this wonderful life of mine as long as possible.
My current part-time vegan diet may be a lot tougher, but I have already lost a few lbs and I am feeling even better about getting into a bathing suit this summer. I don't miss certain foods like I thought I would and I never feel hungry. I think the biggest part of my weight loss journey hasn't been portion control, it has been eating the right things. I feel the best ever right now, and I know it is because I am fueling my body with the right things to eat. Yes, those decisions are hard, because I really want that bowl of cheese dip, but I know it won't make me feel great about my belly in the morning. How about the guacamole instead? But let it be known, I don't deprive myself either, my motto is moderation. Always moderation.
Thanks for being in this space with me today. Blessed to share this with you all!